v1

i am
fatal as guns, labelled a nun
bad for your boy,
mum, cradle your son
can’t sleep, yet unable to run
i can do this on my own two feet
booked a table for one
bittersweet is the taste
inner me is the place
emptiness is the space
visibly it’s the case
distressed, distraught
distant, withdrawn
withholding information
witnessed it fall//
from the start to the end,
when, harder to mend
i was smart with my feelings
when he’d rather pretend
unravelling a web of lies
parker’s the pen
cant get passed, it’s intense
plus my masks a defence//
the misery’s so comforting (so comforting, so comforting)
don’t say i’m just in love with him
struggling to think, later, guzzling a drink
how it was over in the blink
i’m discovering the link//


chorus

like a stray fox i eat alone
out a takeaway box
this tables taken, seat is owned
it gets deep, no longer seeing baywatch
but i’ve sharpened my lens
fought the same battle
that ya armour prevents
went in empty handed
with my heart on the fence
friends?
that’s as fatal as guns,
table for one


v2

i feel like a rock in water
sorry i did not inform ya
needed time for myself, so i blocked the caller
nothing can stop the trauma
of watching it all go up in flames
like a rocket launcher
i oughta
tell you what i’m talking about
or explain when it’s all figured out
what kind of spineless creature
said, times a healer
to a terminal illness with no sign or fever
either,
i’m a blind believer,
following a heart often stalked by the silent creeper
a leader is my demeanor
hey, it’s nice to meet ya
my temporary problem’s
tempts me to lie and leave earth
my temperature's rising,
reaching the highest reader,
my mind is my temple,
corrupted by conniving cheaters//
struggling to think, later guzzling a drink
how it was over in a blink,
i’m discovering the link//


chorus

like a stray fox i eat alone
out a takeaway box
this tables taken, seat is owned
it gets deep, no longer seeing baywatch
but i’ve sharpened my lens
fought the same battle
that ya armour prevents
went in empty handed
with my heart on the fence
friends?
that’s as fatal as guns,
table for one


v3

sitting here, wishing everything would disappear
just to get my vision clear,
with a spear, in battle mode
my primal instinct isn’t fear
still fighting through forgiving tears
time froze back to a different year//
ever spent, so much time, heaven sent?
that ya dreamt?
was everlasting and it never ends
now you say we’re better friends?
living life separate, when?
i don’t wanna let ya,what?
i don’t wanna get a, where?
i just want a reason, why?
sorry for upsetting, who?
did you really even try?
like i, would wanna ease your mind
through the tough times, i cried
gritted my teeth, i’m fine
it was rough, i’m, love blind
didn’t you see the signs?
what signs?! must’ve missed me
bow and arrow hit me
like missy, i miss the meaner mary
not so hugs and kissy, hello kitty
love can make you act so silly
now i’m sitting by a box of chilli nachos, chilly

chorus

like a stray fox i eat alone
out a takeaway box
this tables taken, seat is owned
it gets deep, no longer seeing baywatch
but i’ve sharpened my lens
fought the same battle
that ya armour prevents
went in empty handed
with my heart on the fence
friends?
that’s as fatal as guns,
table for one